Apologies

Friday, November 16th, 2012

Back in July, Rave and I headed down to Virginia over the week of July 4th. The year before, I had won a drawing for two free plane tickets to anywhere in the continental USA, and a car rental for a week.

So we visited with her brother down in Newport News, and spent the week doing the Historic Triangle Ticket hitting Colonial Williamsburg, Jamestown, and Yorktown.

It was awesome. As a history nerd and reenactor, this was like going to Disneyland. Spending the 4th of July at the original Jamestown settlement site…. hell YES!

One of the many fantastic memories I took from this trip was in Yorktown.

While wandering through the cemetery grounds of the Grace Episcopal Church (Rave and I both love graveyards, especially really old ones) I happened upon an unassuming stone with no extra ornamentation other than a little American flag such as you see next to the resting place of our nation’s veterns, and small plaque that read:

“Signer of Declaration of Independence”

It was the resting spot of General Thomas Nelson Jr.

Chills went down my spine.

No crowds. No “hey, Famous Dead Guy Here!” signs. Rave and I were the only folks enjoying the peace of the cemetery, and we just happened upon the grave.

I stood there before the final resting place of this man. And I said “I’m sorry”.

At the time I thought it was for the reasons I’ve been bitching about lately. Looking at what these men fought for and how we, as a nation, have wiped our collective asses with it fills me with shame.

Now?

I’m ashamed of being a pessimistic defeatist.

I’m done with it. Erinyes is right. Fuck this shit, reload, pile the bodies, and carry on.

Still going to be doing a HELL of a lot of preparation for the coming times (that’s not pessimism, it’s just common fucking sense). Avoiding despair is a big part of that.

As a nation, I think at this point we NEED to be bitchslapped out of our comfort zone to wake people the fuck up. Leaning shit the hard way sucks, but at least it’s learning.

I am an agnostic, but if there is an afterlife I hope to shake General Nelson’s hand, look him in the eye, and say “I did what I could to protect what you gave us, sir.” without shame.

9 Responses to “Apologies”

  1. We’ve been stuck with a pretty crappy hand for the next four years, but we need to just do our best to take care of ourselves and continue living the best we can. America survived the Vietnam War fallout and the stagflation and bad presidents of the 70′s to come out on top with Reagan, and I believe that we’ll survive this period too somehow. We just may need some extra barf bags for the ride, though.

  2. “I am an agnostic, but if there is an afterlife I hope to shake General Nelson’s hand, look him in the eye, and say “I did what I could to protect what you gave us, sir.” without shame. ”

    Oh, man, I could not have said it any better! RELOAD!

    :oD

  3. [...] Graumagus has a powerful post that is a must-read for anyone who considers him or herself a proud Am… I tell people often how important it is to preserve the unique gift handed down to us by General Thomas Nelson, Jr. and the rest of the signers of the Declaration of Independence, now more than ever. [...]

  4. “Experience keeps a dear school, but a fool will learn in no other.” – Benjamin Franklin

    It is said that good judgment comes from experience, but experience comes from bad judgment. I expect that many people in need of good judgment are going to get the experience, and soon.

    I had the pleasure once of meeting a veteran of the Frozen Chosin. Not a man who was too keen on whining and giving up, as you might expect.

    “Cowboy up”, “nut up or shut up”, “get a sack, Dude”, or whatever phrase gets your ass in gear.

    I’m not stopping. I’m just pausing to reload.

    Found your site from Erinyes. I like it.

  5. Government tyranny can be defeated.

    It’s the stupidity of the populace that keeps me awake at night.

  6. “It’s the stupidity of the populace that keeps me awake at night.”

    EXACTLY!

  7. Did you notice that at the base of his grave, at the right, is a DAR marker noting he was a revolutionary patriot? We do that.

    I was in Amelia Island this week marking a Patriot’s grave. I brought my family on the 5 hour trek. How often does one stumble upon a patriot’s grave from 200 years ago?

  8. It was the highlight of the trip for me. It really was.

  9. If one listens closely, in the silence of a cemetery you can hear the truth.

    And Bou- I don’t think stumbling upon Nelson’s grave was an accident. It just took us a couple months for that truth to sink in.

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